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“I have to say that anger is the blanket that comes around me, and that blunts and blurs my sense of proportion.” Pete Townshend
The Aries full Moon links arms with the opposing Libra Sun and Neptune in the all-encompassing sign of Pisces. There is the need now to transcend the dominant worldview – a view constructed through a complex system of lies, creating a nightmarish pseudo-reality that is as enticing as it is horrifying.
Simple answers that channel ultimate responsibility in the direction of someone or something else are easily embraced. But under this full Moon as we come to a fork in the road where skepticism and a more creative approach is possible.
“Mastering the forces that shape our reality” starts with a recognition of the truth. That becomes a central challenge when Saturn transits the sign of Sagittarius as it has been since Dec. of 2014. Truth tends to be hidden under layers of illusion and the consequences of living in an illusory world become increasingly painful. Sometimes a separation from the robotic conformity of the masses is necessary to see the world as it is.
In the words of Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (The Gulag Archipelago) “If only it were all so simple! If only there were evil people somewhere insidiously committing evil deeds, and it were necessary only to separate them from the rest of us and destroy them. But the line dividing good and evil cuts through the heart of every human being. And who is willing to destroy a piece of his own heart?”
A profound tragedy can reinforce or undermine the truth. We decide with our interpretation which it does. At best this full Moon facilitates a snake-like molting of traditional reality filters, enlightening the nature of our relationship with ourselves and the world.
Jupiter ruling Saturn in Sagittarius, now placed in the final degree of Libra, implies the end of an old way of relating – to everything. Jupiter on the cusp of a move into the sign of Scorpio (Oct. 10th) – where the really big transformations occur – places us in limbo. We realize that conformity to the “old ways” betrays who we are but what’s there to take its place remains a blur. We’re neither here nor there, actually the perfect spot for approaching situations creatively rather than robotically.
Venus rules the Sun in Libra and Mars rules the Aries Moon. Both are placed at 19 degrees of Virgo – the sign of self-improvement and seeing past a host of minor problems to the ones that actually impede our progress. Saturn squares Venus and Mars creating a dynamic, undeniable urge to resolve the issue and to relieve the mounting pressure. We can do better is the essential message.
It’s time for an accurate diagnosis. It’s time to stop pretending that this will resolve itself. It’s time to get organized, to assert higher levels of self-control, to stay focused, and on-task to accomplish what we need to accomplish. It’s time to simplify and remove the distractions.
Half asleep/half awake this morning I remembered a time when the evil and the good within me were starkly highlighted.
I was a new nurse working in pediatrics, idealistically devoted to my mission to ease pain and to be of selfless service. I remember working lots of overtime, staying past quitting time trying my best to offer some measure of comfort to parents who’d spent days – sometimes weeks or months- watching their child struggle to survive. Frequently I’d cry on my way home as their pain and sadness sunk in. My motivation to help was pure. I was as close to angelic and innocent at that point in my life as any time I can remember.
At the same time I was living in a sketchy neighborhood in transition – gentrification you might say. My “difficult” husband and I were restoring an old Victorian home as were an increasing number of our neighbors. Sometimes I feared for my safety… but not much. I learned to be cautious and was primarily caught up in “restoration fever.”
At some point during that time my husband, my husband’s family, and a few neighbors, sat around our dining room table discussing how it might be good for me to have a gun for protection. I worked evenings and drove home late at night.
They had no idea they were advocating giving a gun to a person (me) with Mars at O degrees of Aries in the 1st house. If you’re not familiar with astrology that’s a strong indicator of someone highly impulsive, prone to fits of rage, and primitive means of dealing with it.
As I listened to each of them I knew for sure that this conversation was going nowhere and that I could never allow myself to have access to a gun.
Everyone of them sitting at that table had at some point enraged me – some of them more than a few times. Had I had easy access to a gun when in the process of going from 0 to 60 in a fit of anger I could see myself acting impulsively in the moment. I was absolutely capable of channeling my anger in destructive ways.
But I knew I’d have to continue to vent the same way I always did – slamming heavy doors in the old house were restoring, feeling some sense of satisfaction watching old plaster fly off the walls and scaring my then husband who of course deserved it. Thankfully my 0 degree Aries Mars has grown up some since then.
But I understood it for a moment then and, under this full Moon influence, I’m reminded of it now. The line dividing good and evil cuts through my own heart. I’m spiritually responsible – and we’re collectively responsible – for the profound evil and the profound good recently highlighted in the Las Vegas tragedy.
To the extent that we commit to improving ourselves in whatever ways we feel compelled to improve – despite the effort, risk, and major transformations involved – we move ourselves and the world one step closer toward something more enlightened and humane.
Thanks for reading and have a wonderful week.
RN., MS., NMH., RYT., C.A.P.
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San Juan Capistrano, CA.